Quote.

Most things in life are inconsequential.

The worst thing you could do to yourself is have expectations.

You lose the ability to compartmentalize and you end up hating and being inconvenienced by every little thing.

Life is too short.

We’re all going to die, we’re all eventually are going to be forgotten, everything we build, everything we destroy, will be met with an equal opposite force and be put back in it’s place.

I realized this not long after I became an adult.

I threw away my dreams, my ambitions, my desires, my ego, my expectations of myself and others.

Ever since I’ve been living in spite of it all.

Living for the present day.

Living for comfort.

Living for love.

Living for the small fortunes bestowed upon us by this glorious world.

This glorious creation of God.

Now..

I live for peace.

I’m manifesting memories and happiness.

That’s all I’ll ever want or need. -Michael Ament

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Token.

Bacteria.

Microbes in a petri dish.

That’s what I see when I look upon you.

Skeletons, walking corpses.

Lizards and monkeys.

When will it dawn on you?

Miniscule, insignificant, ashes to ashes.

Taste like charcoal.

The suffering accrued.

At the peak of absurdity, cynicism and the lot.

Substantially, fundamentally broken.

It’s inconsequential.

All that shit you fought for.

Just a token, to celebrate insanity.

It’s inconsequential.

Loss and gain, revolving door.

Like clockwork.

Wheels and gears.

Rage for the machine.

Queers and steers.

Short and lean.

Flies buzzing around disillusioned flesh.

Content with consensual coma.

Consensus and soma.

33 degrees, and a worthless diploma.

Sustained by blissful ignorance.

Cognitive dissonance.

Only your captors know you well.

It’s inconsequential.

All that shit you fought for.

Just a token, to celebrate insanity.

It’s inconsequential.

Loss and gain, revolving door.

Like clockwork.

Bastards and prostitutes.

Puppets and radical elements.

Criminals and crazies.

God took a shit.

Meatheads and limp wrists.

Burn the writ.

Were it so simplistic.

Value applied is value lost.

Polite identity holocaust.

Dye your hair or shave your head, feels as though you’re better off dead.

Fill your coffers or share your bread.

It’s inconsequential.

All that shit you fought for.

Just a token, to celebrate insanity.

It’s inconsequential.

Loss and gain, revolving door.

Like clockwork. -Michael Ament

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Dream journal: The Repository.

This dream starts in a park.

All of a sudden thousands of bees come out of nowhere, the bees have the ability to manipulate time and space.

Once you are stung you are transported in between realities, unable to escape as every exit becomes an entrance back to where you started.

Eventually I am teleported into another realm.

This realm is dark, the only light is a dim sunlight, like the light coming through cracks in a dark house at dawn.

The realm is occupied by hundreds of people from different places in time, from cavemen to modern humans.

This realm has everything you need, food, drinks, television and video games, and of course company.

But it’s always dark and always ominous, and it feels like something is watching you.

That’s because there is.

As I and multiple others try to escape the realm we run into a creature called the watcher.

The watcher is like a living shadow with glowing red eyes, skinny and tall, long lanky arms and legs; and has the ability to control time and space.

Every time we attempt to make an escape we are confronted by the watcher and transported back to where we started.

I eventually get sick and tired of this revolving door so I manifest a sword in my hand and hunt and kill the watcher.

Once the watcher is dead I have a short window to escape before the watcher resurrects.

I gather as many people as possible, about three dozen, and we search and find an escape, a black hole that looks as if it is filled with distant stars.

As we jump in everything goes black.

All of sudden we are teleported to the real world, in the middle of a busy highway, it’s raining and the cars quickly slide to a stop in every which direction because of the wet roads.

Everyone ushers a sigh of relief, smiles on our faces and laughing ensues.

I then break down and cry tears of joy.

That is when I wake up. -Michael David Ament

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Corpsemass.

Mass of flesh.

Black in dress.

Shoulder to shoulder.

Hearts no colder.

Hate and anger.

Sadness and death.

Double-edged sword.

The edge is caressed.

Madness.

This is madness.

No better time to render.

Never surrender.

Madness.

This madness.

Shove them in a pit.

Bury me in shit.

Do as you’re fucking told.

Killing each other, your blood is gold.

Mass of flesh.

I am your king of worms.

Black in dress.

Pain is assured.

Shoulder to shoulder.

A mosaic of shields.

Hate and anger.

Release it into the field.

Sadness and death.

This is your fate, this is real.

A double edged sword, die for me or kneel.

Madness.

This is madness.

No better time to render.

Never surrender.

Madness.

This madness.

Shove them in a pit.

Bury me in shit.

Do as you’re fucking told.

Killing each other, your blood is gold.

Mass of flesh.

Reddened crest.

Fodder and carrion, feed the blessed.

Corpse starch and swine blood.

Degenerates in their hovels rut.

God, neither here nor there, save yourself or rot in mud.

Indignant condescending stare, below me, I see your hair, twirling like thunder crosses.

Bring your shit in, and get accosted.

Mass of flesh.

Black in dress.

Shoulder to shoulder.

Hearts no colder.

Hate and anger.

Sadness and death.

Double-edged sword.

The edge is caressed.

Madness.

This is madness.

No better time to render.

Never surrender.

Madness.

This madness.

Shove them in a pit.

Bury me in shit.

Do as you’re fucking told.

Killing each other, your blood is gold.

Corpsemass!

Corpsemass!

Corpsemass!

The ritual unfolds! -Michael David Ament

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Journaling the Dreamscape.

From now on, in addition to poems and socio-political ramblings, I will be using this blog as a shared dream journal.

I will write down all my dreams, nightmares, and maddening visions here in the best detail I can from what I can remember.

I will inter them in this space as they arise, which will be often, as I am a very vivid and consistent dreamer.

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Weight.

I got needs down to my knees.

I can’t breathe.

You plant the seeds.

My heart bleeds.

Lost in a dream.

The heavens are green.

Above the icy seas.

Nowhere to flee.

Buried beneath.

And the shadow of time consumes the weary bastard.

I crumple like a used napkin.

Wrinkled and stained, smelling of salty tears.

I’ve lost all amity, though I do not fear.

The flames of righteous indignation searing flesh.

To dust and ashes, peering into infinity I rest.

In the reeds I swallow fleas.

I can’t see.

She hearkens my screams.

My skin reeks.

Nightmare tobacco smoke cancer.

The throne is red.

Below the umber earth.

The throat burns.

Buried without worth.

And the shadow of time consumes the weary bastard.

I crumple like a used napkin.

Wrinkled and stained, smelling of salty tears.

I’ve lost all amity, though I do not fear.

The flames of righteous indignation searing flesh.

To dust and ashes, peering into infinity I rest.

Desire till I expire.

I can’t be freed.

I saw the ancient greed.

Conquer the world.

I read too deep.

The fields of gold.

Ransacked and sold.

Fall into irradiated hole.

Buried with all I know.

And the shadow of time consumes the weary bastard.

I crumple like a used napkin.

Wrinkled and stained, smelling of salty tears.

I’ve lost all amity, though I do not fear.

The flames of righteous indignation searing flesh.

To dust and ashes, peering into infinity I rest.

Rest.

Rest.

Rest.

Was it worth the weight? -Michael David Ament

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Winter Sun.

The sun gives a false warmth.

Yet it’s a balm for the eyes.

Can not wait for the seeds to take root.

And the world to spring alive.

I cast a shadow upon colorful petals.

The scent fills mine air.

I relinquish fire to my kettle.

I surrender my heart to lovers fair.

The beauty inherent in every drop of blood.

The tears from the sky come like a flood.

Swallow in it’s perfection.

As I gaze upon my reflection.

Flowing like golden mead.

Spice and sugar, salt and hugr; my soul is a well.

As we sing songs amongst the reeds.

It’s a realm we create; heaven or hell.

Waiting patiently for eternal night to flee.

All things said, all the battles fought.

All the skin shed, all the fates sought.

A toast in Valhalla, I cherish the thought.

Though clash of shields and steel doth rend..

We lay beneath midgard’s soil in the end.

No longer graced by the winter sun. -Michael David Ament

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Germination.

Animate the internal eternal.

Light the path with your source potential.

Walk the golden road; activate the mental.

Create and alleviate; free hand or stencil.

A dozen ravens circle overhead.

Squeeze the monkey; twist and bend.

Transcend your consciousness; molt and blend.

Transformed now; the butterfly mends.

Wings now free, cocoon and seed; picturesque the apocalyptic scene.

Lead me to an early end.

Jesus fucking Christ; I’ve gone off the deep end.

Swimmin’ in blood and shit with a neat grin.

Call me a Welshman cause I eat sin.

You can’t cast me out cause I’ll creep in.

Holy fucking shit I don’t know where to begin.

Guardian demons and shower goblins.

Voices in my head; got a thousand problems.

Shadows in my peripherals; I’m out of pocket.

Madman’s drill in my ocular socket.

If I had a gun; I would of shot it.

Blot out the sun; put it on my docket.

Phlegm in my throat; gotta hock it.

Like a freight train smoking; gotta stop it.

But I’m a sad wizard; no cap.

God keeps my depression on tap.

Mediate between the spirits; I’m that.

Schizophrenic, ecumenic autogenic, pathogenic neurasthenic, authentic genus on the way out dressed in all black.

Buckle up buttercup it’s time to face the facts.

No one can match this bitter seed; I’m the king of cats.

Jesus fucking Christ; I’ve gone off the deep end.

Swimmin’ in blood and shit with a neat grin.

Call me a Welshman cause I eat sin.

You can’t cast me out cause I’ll creep in.

Holy fucking shit I don’t know where to begin.

Animate the internal eternal.

Light the path with your source potential.

Walk the golden road; activate the mental.

Create and alleviate; free hand or stencil.

A dozen ravens circle overhead.

Squeeze the monkey; twist and bend.

Transcend your consciousness; molt and blend.

Transformed now; the butterfly mends.

Wings now free, cocoon and seed; picturesque the apocalyptic scene.

Lead me to an early end.

Mediate between the spirits; I’m that.

Schizophrenic, ecumenic autogenic, pathogenic neurasthenic, authentic genus on the way out dressed in all black.

Transcend your consciousness; molt and blend.

Transformed now; the butterfly mends.

Wings now free, cocoon and seed; picturesque the apocalyptic scene.

Lead me to an early end indeed.

Germinate.

Germinate.

Germinate.

Lead me to an early end indeed.

Don’t fear the unknown; we’re just germinating seeds.

Animate the internal eternal.

Light the path with your source potential.

Walk the golden road; activate the mental.

Create and alleviate; free hand or stencil.

Transcend your consciousness; molt and blend.

Transformed now; the butterfly mends. -Michael David Ament

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Frequency & Fire

Undulate upon the sacred ground.

Moving hips to the indigo sound.

Frequency and fire ringing aloud.

Roots and chromosomes; stoic and proud.

Bleed for love.

Bleed your energy.

An acquired taste.

Sensory synergy.

It all rotates like the earth.

The scene is green, salivate over sour things.

Wash the skin clean.

Power, matter and antimatter; gravity.

Finding peace in the dance of the unseen.

Undulate upon the sacred ground.

Gyrating bones to the amazonite sound.

Instinct and wind blowing abound.

Ancient souls and meditation bowls; spinning the heart around.

Bleed for love.

Bleed your energy.

An acquired taste.

Sensory synergy.

It moves the tides like the moon.

The scene is green, salivate over sour things.

Wash the skin clean.

Power, matter and antimatter; gravity.

Finding peace in the dance of the unseen.

Bleed for love.

Bleed your energy.

An acquired taste.

Sensory synergy.

Frequency and fire ringing aloud.

Roots and chromosomes; stoic and proud.

Bleed for love.

Bleed your energy.

An acquired taste.

Sensory synergy.

Instinct and wind blowing abound.

Ancient souls and meditation bowls; spinning the heart around.

Undulating upon the sacred ground. -Michael David Ament

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Need.

Need.

My need is worming it’s way inside.

In the octogram I confide.

My muscle tissue is crawling with petulant desire; no place to hide.

Eyes burning with tears as I; open my hardened heart wide.

Oh God I know, I feel stupid; I feel like a sellout now.

Human; but chiseled from stone.

Human; don’t leave me alone.

Worried that I don’t really know.

Carrying a heavy load.

I need help; I need restitution.

Need.

My need is worming it’s way inside.

In the octogram I confide.

Trying to see clearly; swallowed by the cascading shadows.

Pores brimming with liquid mercury.

The gold only glitters so bright.

Human; but chiseled from stone.

Human; don’t leave me alone.

Worried that I don’t really know.

Carrying a heavy load.

I need help; I need restitution.

Need.

My need is worming it’s way inside.

In the octogram I confide.

My cancer is growing; my time is growing short.

I want to feel coins upon my fingertips; I want to feel soft skin beneath my nail beds.

Shallow as it may seem, and sometimes; I’m as shallow as they come.

My blood pumps to sow the seed.

I’ll leave a bloody mess before I’m done.

Human; but chiseled from stone.

Human; don’t leave me alone.

Worried that I don’t really know.

Carrying a heavy load.

I need help; I need restitution.

Oh God I know, I feel stupid; I feel like a sellout now.

The gold only glitters so bright.

I’ll leave a bloody mess before I’m done.

Need.

Need.

Need.

Need.

Need!

I need help; I need restitution! -Michael David Ament

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