Shadow.

Shadows permissable, now void of light.

Love grows invisible; in the night.

Memories hold, but still I found no truth.

What is real, and what is blue; the worst in me is you.

Gaining ground whilst withering away.

Blood boiling, miserable heart beating the day away.

God is known to me; like a chip in my tooth.

What is real, and what is blue; the worst in me is you.

Hatred and envy; they know me well.

What I have and have not; is my own private hell.

You could focus on better things; but you’ve been here throughout my youth.

What is real, and what is blue; the worst in me is you.

Withering away in the shade..

The hands I’ve held; the cards I’ve played..

Withering away in the shade..

No love, no hate..

Withering away in the shade.

Hell’s highway leads to heaven’s gate..

Withering away in the shade..

Hollow.

Hollow.

Hollow.

I guess I’m just a fool.

What is real and what is blue..

What is real…

Shadows permissable, now void of light.

Love grows invisible; in the night.

Memories hold, but still I found no truth.

Gaining ground whilst withering away.

Blood boiling, miserable heart beating the day away.

God is known to me; like a chip in my tooth.

Hatred and envy; they know me well.

What I have and have not; is my own private hell.

You could focus on better things; but you’ve been here throughout my youth.

What is real, and what is blue; the worst in me is you.

The worst in me is you. – Michael Ament

Enough.

Not enough.

Never enough.

Till I’m laid to rest.

In a coffin.

Claustrophile.

Food for worms.

O’ nature.. Everything I’ve taken; I give back to you.

Never enough.

So much existential pain.

(Never enough.)

Need a fucking drink or a Percocet.

(Never enough.)

Shot myself with too much to think.

(Never enough.)

Wide awake; can never blink.

(Never)

All laughs as I sink.

(Enough)

Is this the missing link.

It’s..

(It’s)

It’s never enough.

(Never enough)

Not enough.

Never enough.

Till I’m laid to rest.

In a coffin.

Claustrophile.

Food for worms.

O’ god.. Everything I’ve taken; I give back to you.

Never enough.

It’s..

(It’s)

Never.

(Never)

It’s..

(Never)

It’s..

(It’s)

Never.

(It’s never)

Never.

(Never enough.)

Not enough.

Never enough.

Till I’m laid to rest.

In a coffin.

Claustrophile.

Food for worms.

O’ nature.. Everything I’ve taken; I give back to you.

Never enough.

So much existential pain.

(Never enough.)

Need a fucking drink or a Percocet.

(Never enough.)

Shot myself with too much to think.

(Never enough.)

Wide awake; can never blink.

(Never)

All laughs as I sink.

(Enough)

Is this the missing link.

It’s..

(It’s)

It’s never enough.

(Never enough)

It’s..

(It’s)

Never.

(Never)

It’s..

(Never)

It’s..

(It’s)

Never.

(It’s never)

Never.

(Never enough.) -Michael Ament

Circling.

Hazy.

Esoteric enigma.

Concepts of a theme.

Blind eye; amethyst and lapis lazuli.

Polarize and center; the edge of dying.

Circling my dreams.

And what is it; that I saw?

And what is it; that I said?

And what is it worth?

Joyous exhalation; existential dread.

It’s all so enrapturing.

Crazy.

Chaotic as the universe.

Energy and their containers.

Deep roots thrive; obsidian and tiger’s eye.

Computate and entrap, order from disorder.

Circling my dreams.

And what is it; that I saw?

And what is it; that I said?

And what is it worth?

Joyous exhalation; existential dread.

It’s all so enrapturing.

Erasing.

My head is full to bursting.

My heart; it feels empty.

Love and lies; rose quartz and amazonite.

Terrorize and mentor; complete surrender.

Circling my dreams.

Circle my dreams.

And what is it; that I saw?

Circling my dreams?

And what is it; that I said?

Enrapturing me?

And what is it worth?

At the edge of dying..

And what is it; that I need?

Maybe you, maybe me; encircling my dreams… -Michael Ament

Shattered.

I’m shattered.

I need someone to repair me.

To hold me.

To know me for what I am.

Molecular and transcendent levels.

To cure the sickness.

To fix what’s broken.

Don’t you fly away birdie.

Don’t you run away.

I’m not all that scary.

I’m not all that terrifying.

But I’m terrified.

I’m sick and tired of being alone.

I’m shattered.

Molecular and transcendent levels.

Translucent; yet no one sees inside.

To the fire, the undying light.

To the shadows; cast upon what’s right.

To the cold, cold mountain that I’ve become.

No I can’t change what I’ve done.

Don’t you fly away birdie.

Don’t you run away.

I’m not all that scary.

I’m not all that terrifying.

But I’m terrified.

I’m sick and tired of being alone.

Cast down and shattered.

Cast down and stepped upon.

Cast down and ground beneath it’s heel.

Molecular and transcendent levels.

And blown away with the wind.

To the fire, the undying light.

To the shadows; cast upon what’s right.

To the cold, cold mountain that I’ve become.

I’m shattered.

I need someone to repair me.

To hold me.

To know me for what I am.

Molecular and transcendent levels.

To cure the sickness.

To fix what’s broken.

Don’t you fly away birdie.

Don’t you run away.

I’m not all that scary.

I’m not all that terrifying.

But I’m terrified.

I’m sick and tired of being alone.

Molecular and transcendent levels.

Translucent; yet no one sees inside. -Michael Ament

High.

Because at once, you’re truly sober.  And you can never get high again.

Dragon’s tolerance heart beating loudly.

Damn my shit eating grin.

Schizoaffective.

Drowning drowsy; heart bleeding thin.

Drowning within.

Because at once, you’re bent over.

Fucked by life.

Ready to die.

At one with the sober.

Reach for the dice.

Ready to lie.

Drowning within.

Because at once, you’re truly sober.  And you can never get high again.

Dragon’s tolerance heart beating loudly.

Damn my shit eating grin.

Schizoaffective.

Drowning drowsy; heart bleeding thin.

Drowning within.

Because at once, you’re bent over.

Fucked by life.

Ready to die.

At one with the sober.

Reach for the dice.

Ready to lie.

Drowning within.

Because at once you’re truly sober.

Because at once you’re truly sober.

Because at once you’re truly sober.

Drowning within.

So fucking high again. -Michael Ament

Suicide.

Cry me a river.

Cry me a sea.

Cry me an ocean.

I wouldn’t believe.

You don’t belong here.

Not here with me.

My home, my haven, my mind; is craven.

Die with me or leave.

Trapped in endless solitude, a depression; compression.

Squeezing the life out of me.

Except for you, like petulant children, crawling in to the crevices of my brain.

You could be so much better, but you’re hateful liars.

Projection, deflection, dissection, destroy; destroying me.

Salgir river.

Blackest sea.

Cry me an ocean.

I wouldn’t believe.

You don’t belong here.

And neither do I.

My home, my haven, my mind; is craven.

Not much longer until I die.

Not your brother, not your lover, not your buddy, not your friend.

Just a means to an end; for you.

Tripping and falling over the same tired words.

Insults and allegations.

Yes I know you, you’re a curse.

Cry me a river.

Cry me a sea.

Cry me an ocean.

I wouldn’t believe.

You don’t belong here.

Not here with me.

My home, my haven, my mind; is craven.

Die with me or leave.

Shut up.

Die.

Man up.

Die.

I am righteous.

Die.

You are not.

Indignation.

Indignation.

Indignation.

Salgir river.

Blackest sea.

Cry me an ocean.

I wouldn’t believe.

You don’t belong here.

Not here with me.

My home, my haven, my mind; is craven.

Die with me or leave.

Try me. -michael ament

Talk.

Talk, talk is all you do.

I couldn’t care two shits about you.

Talk until your face is blue.

Talk until your eyes pop out.

Talk until the drool comes from your mouth.

Talk, talk is all you do.

Schizophrenic voices is all you are.

Think you’re real, but I know better than to take it that far.

Mountains climbed, and drowning in valleys below.

Depression and disillusion is my soul.

Fuck you.

Talk, talk is all you do.

I couldn’t care two shits about you.

Talk until your face is blue.

I know better talkers than you.

Don’t want you here, just wish you’d get a clue.

Talk, talk is all you do.

“Burn and die”

“Stop lying to yourself.”

“Die in prison”

“You’re worse than everyone else”

“Your phallus leaves much to be desired”

“Your position is retired”

“Off yourself”

“There’s nothing you can do”

Talk, talk is all you do.

I couldn’t care two shits about you.

Talk until your face is blue.

Talk until your eyes pop out.

Talk until the drool comes from your mouth.

Talk, talk is all you do.

Voices in my head.

Rotting in my bed.

Wish I could die instead.

But in spite; I live to cause you dread.

Fuck you.

Talk, talk is all you do.

I couldn’t care two shits about you.

Talk until your face is blue.

I know better talkers than you.

Don’t want you here, just wish you’d get a clue.

Everything is dumb to you.

Fuck you.

Fuck you.

Fuck you.

Nothing is real.

Just shit and corpses

Fucking absurd.

You’re my fucking voices.

Fuck you.

Fuck.

You. -michael Ament

Flames of hell.

Idealistic sacrosanct dispositions.

Fallacious righteous indignations.

One world, one mind; fucking bullshit expectation.

Who are WE, and what are WE to you?

Condemnation over miniscule disagreements.

God forbid; if it isn’t Jesus.

Come with sword to cull the hordes.

Shallow and unstable.

Myriad of ideological whores.

Fucking pick and stick with.

And stop your whining.

Destroying the norm.

Conforming no more.

My dissertation of distancing.

Dissociation.

Tracing the outline of my inner form.

This is me, and we are not WE; I’ll be damned if we revel in obstinate glorification of degeneracy.

Find a place to be; just anywhere but here.

And choke on your impotence.

Parsimonious, prostrate, predilect; pricks.

Sanctimonious salivating serpents.

Caged and deserving.

Wishing to be free, but enslaved to oneself indefinitely.

Pour out a drink for the dead, damned; dipshits.

Nothing more than NPCs; lost to their humanity.

Consciousness waning, oases drying up.

Pineal pinecone crystallized and corrupt.

Sucking down, consuming the stagnant waters.

Brain eating parasites; eating each other.
One world, one mind; fucking bullshit expectation.

Who are WE, and what are WE to you?

Destroying the norm.

Conforming no more.

My dissertation of distancing.

Dissociation.

Tracing the outline of my inner form.

This is me, and we are not WE; I’ll be damned if we revel in obstinate glorification of degeneracy.

Find a place to be; just anywhere but here.

And choke on your impotence.

Parsimonious, prostrate, predilect; pricks.

Elohim..

Elohim..

Elohim damn it all.

Plant the seed.

Wrist to bleed.

Sanguinity to feed.

The petulant children damn it all.

Consternation.

Consternation.

Consternation.

Destroying the norm.

Conforming no more.

My dissertation of distancing.

Dissociation.

Tracing the outline of my inner form.

This is me, and we are not WE; I’ll be damned if we revel in obstinate glorification of degeneracy.

Find a place to be; just anywhere but here.

And choke on your impotence.

Parsimonious, prostrate, predilect; pricks.

Elohim damn it all.

To the flames of hell. – Michael Ament

Hole.

Sick and tired.

Ennui and desperately disillusioned.

Mirrored neuro-apathetic contusions.

Driving me to distancing myself from my humanity.

Dissociation and death.

Glorification of nothingness.

Insanity.

And we’re it so easy, to accept this; be like them.

So content.

So blissful and ignorant.

I would maybe find solace.

Feel something substantial.

The cost of this despair is too much to bear.

I’m better off spitefully enraptured in..

Cold and mired.

Ennui and physically ill.

Mirrored my anima; choking down pills.

Driving me into a stupor of numb hindrance.

Dissociation and death.

Glorification of arrogance.

Belligerence.

And we’re it so easy, to accept this; be like them.

So content.

So blissful and ignorant.

I would maybe find solace.

Feel something substantial.

The cost of this despair is too much to bear.

I’m better off spitefully enraptured in..

In this..

In this..

In this..

Hole.

Deep and dark.

Frozen hearts and bleeding souls.

Truer words never spoken than those of utter disappointment.

In this..

Feel a part of something.

Or fade into nothing.

It’s so damn..

Difficult..

And we’re it so easy, to accept this; be like them.

So content.

So blissful and ignorant.

I would maybe find solace.

Feel something substantial.

The cost of this despair is too much to bear.

I’m better off spitefully enraptured in..

In this..

In this..

In this..

Hole. -Michael Ament

Thirteen Commandments/55 Precepts.

13 Commandments:

1. Thou shalt not perpetuate injustice through imprisonment or death.

2. Thou shalt consume a great variety, yet shun all that makes you sick without benefit.

3. Thou shalt love your blood-kin.

4. Thou shalt love the old gods as blood-kin.

5. Thou shalt respect all gods, yet bow to none but the absolute.

6. Thou shalt not feed the damned with negativity.

7. Thou shalt not perpetuate ignorance in one’s self or fellow man.

8. Thou shalt perceive all things as inconsequential; as all things shall be restored to the natural order given time.

9. Thou shalt not trap one’s self in a confined space, nor an idea.

10. Thou shalt cherish freedom, yet not at the expense of the innocent.

11. Thou shalt burn effigies to rid one’s self of impurities.

12. Thou shalt create many works with the intention to bless all things.

13. Thou shalt remain distrustful of the kin of Abraham and their teachings and devotees.

55 Precepts:

1. One must be free of impurities of the body, mind, and soul.

2. Pure love can only be experienced in the union of man and woman, all other loves shall be hollow; yet shall be respected as the choice of the individual.

3. Violence is only justifiable in situations of dire existential threat.

4. God is all things and you, and you are all things and God; therefore the individual must consider all things in unison.

5. All emotions are natural; yet one must not allow them to control one’s decisions.

6. All things can not be loved or tolerated, yet must be given autonomy without discrimination under the law.

7. All men must take merit into consideration when granting authority, reward, and biased disposition.

8. Nations must be homogeneous in mind, culture, and spirit.

9. Technology is to be prioritized in research, development, and progressive movements of a financial nature; within reasonable regulations.

10. Mankind must always expand ever outward and never stagnate.

11. Reality and language should be defined by objective truths.

12. Individuals should strive to better one’s physical, mental, and spiritual health before financial security.

13. Sacrifice must be voluntary and without doubt or trepidation.

14. The law of the land must be pertinent to exigent circumstances of a harmful nature or the intent to cause harm.

15. Education must be without opinion and must be beneficial to the future of the student.

16. Militaries must exist solely for the defense of it’s patron peoples and the deterrence of violent conflict.

17. Currency must always be based upon, and tradable for, a resource of immense and mutually agreed upon value.

18. Every crime must be met with a relevant and suitable punishment, no punishment should ever exceed the severity of the crime; and rehabilitory measures should be exhausted before extreme measures are taken.

19. An individual must shun all thoughts of deception and chastise usury of any nature.

20. The absolute God, above all other Gods; should not be defined with human qualities in an effort to facilitate righteous indignation.

21. All individuals must convene with nature at least once a day; grounding the nervous system with bare feet to soil.

22. All organisms consumed for nourishment must be treated kindly and given respect for their sacrifice.

23. All water must be free of toxins and impurities and must pass through channels with natural ergonomics to mimic the flow of the universal order.

24. All clothing should be made with minimally processed organic materials.

25. Propaganda of any nature must be denounced and promptly countered with reason.

26. All censuses and statistics must be gathered from as many sources as possible in an effort to properly inform the public.

27. No individual’s speech shall be censored or met with violent recourse.

28. Gambling should be denounced and strictly regulated, yet not prohibited.

29. All individuals should willingly feed the hungry, comfort the sick, and shelter the homeless as long as they have the resources to do so.

30. Life should be treated as a right and not a privilege.

31. All dreams, visions, and premonitions should be recorded for personal reflection; and all individuals should dedicate time to meditation.

32. One should cleanse their self in living waters every seventh day.

33. Individuals should maintain a comely appearance, yet never succumb to vanity.

34. One should fast between awakening and the zenith hour, yet not at the expense of one’s efficacy.

35. One should consume sweetness in moderation, for the tea leaf is sweet enough.

36. One should maintain a strong physique and test the limits of one’s physicality.

37. All people live in sin, but should abstain; and never claim moral superiority over another.

38. One should imbibe of the fruit of the spore and fermented foods, for they are the essence of life.

39. One should dress themselves with the oil of the clove and the ginger root.

40. One should not consume the flesh of predators without necessity; for it is unclean.

41. One should preserve excess food whenever possible, in order to prevent waste and unnecessary suffering.

42. One must not bind one’s hands, feet, or neck.

43. One must not succumb to fear and should emanate courage at all times.

44. One’s pets must be given autonomy and cherished as blood-kin.

45. One must sustain a natural vibrational frequency and Electromagnetic Conductivity.

46. One must make peace with death, for it is merely a transition, and no things have permanence; only the soul.

47. One should imbibe of grains whole whenever possible.

48. One should abstain from unnecessary suffering and seek comfort.

49. One should not consume alcohol in excess or imbibe before periods of rest.

50. One should always strive to make their environment as tidy as possible, for living in filth perpetuates filth within.

51. All people should work in unison to achieve a common goal before working to further one’s own interests.

52. Overstimulation and all things in excess are poisonous to the self, all people must practice moderation and take ample time to rest without thought.

53. One should revel in their culture and traditions.

54. One must never harm a child intentionally or unintentionally.

55. Even though the universe is inherently chaotic and full of conflict, all people must maintain order and cherish peace whenever possible.